Saturday, May 31, 2008

Awakening the Dreamer, Changing the Dream

Today I went to see the Pachamama Alliance symposium, Awakening the Dreamer, Changing the Dream. I'd been wanting to go for some time, so was happy that things came together for me to go today.

Basically we were taken on a journey--to see the trajectory of human interaction with the Earth-- and given a chance to express how we feel at this moment when so many of us know we are headed into dangerous, treacherous waters, facing decisions which will impact the future of most life on Earth. It was very emotional, and I felt a lot of grief.

The journey didn't stop there, however--we were shown how many people are standing up, how many things are being done; whether it will be enough of course is anybody's guess--but surely if we do nothing we know that we won't like to see what happens.

One of the quotations shared was this, a favorite of mine from another life:

This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being a force of nature instead of a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy.

I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the whole community, and as long as I live it is my privilege to do for it whatever I can.

I want to be thoroughly used up when I die, for the harder I work the more I live. I rejoice in life for its own sake. Life is no "brief candle" for me. It is a sort of splendid torch which I have got hold of for the moment, and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations.

-George Bernard Shaw

I knew much of this stuff going into it; many of the speakers were familiar and the information wasn't really new for the most part. What was powerful for me was to connect with other human beings and share a experience that encouraged me to push myself more and be less afraid about stepping out to do what I can.

Links:

Awakening the Dreamer Symposium Information
Pachamama Alliance website
For The Grandchildren website




Monday, May 26, 2008

Memorial Day thoughts...

To my knowledge, no one in my family has ever died in the military, although some have served. So for me, Memorial Day has mostly just been a long weekend. The start of the summer. But here we are, five years into this war/occupation, with no end in sight, and I think it's worth it to take some time to ponder the costs of war, most of which are borne disproportionately by a few.

I posted this a couple of years ago for Memorial Day, and I think it's worth revisiting. Ian Rhett wrote this song, accompanied by a video that was released for Memorial Day 2006, in honor of his then 19-year-old sister who was serving in the Marine Corps in Iraq. I watched it again a couple of days ago, and found it undiminished in its impact.

His first video, "(Didn't Know I Was) Unamerican," is also worth watching in the context of this day, I think--it speaks to the liberty that the founders of our country were seeking, and which our military is ostensibly there to protect.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

War Inc. and John Cusack on Thom Hartmann's Radio Show

I heard John Cusack yesterday on the Thom Hartmann show, speaking about his new movie, War Inc. He was talking about how difficult it had been to get support for the movie, which is a satirical look at the outsourcing of war. How the corporate media had basically only started to talk about the movie when the buzz was building to a certain point elsewhere, and how reviews in the corporate press had been for the most part lukewarm or outright critical. He reminded me that there was a time, not so very long ago, when we were being openly warned to watch what we say--that in essence, we needed to destroy democracy in order to save it.

Now, I have been a fan of John Cusack since I saw him in The Sure Thing my freshman year of college, and I have admired much--not all, but much--of his work.

I think this movie brings out into the open what has not had enough discussion here at home--what the implications are of outsourcing military functions. We have seen some of what KBR and Blackwater have done in Iraq, but I don't think that there is probably enough awareness of what this has meant in real terms.

So I'm hoping it will make it out of LA and New York into wider distribution; it looks like it will be funny as well as thought-provoking.



You can download Thom Hartmann's May 23 interview with John Cusack here (in the second hour):

KPOJ Thom Hartmann Podcast Page

Friday, May 23, 2008

Justice, or Mercy?

I just finished reading Philippa Gregory's book "A Respectable Trade," and it's given me pause to think more about the structure of this world, of my world, and what has brought us to where we are. In large part it was the slave trade, and then later colonization, and then after that economic hegemony, that allowed the massive accumulation of wealth in what we now call the developed world.

I named this blog "The Long Arc," out of the hope and faith that the world would and could become more just. I have resonated with the bumper stickers that say "If you want peace, work for justice." I like the word Justice. It conjures up images of right triumphing over wrong, of good triumphing over evil. I believe that a more just world is what I want. I see all the unfairness, all the inequity, and I think that life would be better here on earth if things were more just.

But sometimes I see how I benefit, how I've benefited my whole life, from injustice. I haven't liked the possibility that things I buy are made in sweatshops, I haven't liked the fact that my food in all probability has been harvested by people who are little better than slaves, who have little power and few choices. I try to do what I can. But I am part of this system, and I wouldn't know how to extricate myself fully even if I could.

Sometimes now when I think about what you might call the karmic burden of my life as an American consumer, I fear full justice. As the American Empire quavers on what might be its last legs, and I think about how far we could fall and what it all might mean for being able to maintain what I've come to think of as quality of life for my family, for my child, it is hard to not feel fear. What if the chickens we've set loose in the world come home to roost? I think of what we've done to Iraq. What we've helped be done to people in countless nations on this earth to maintain our cheap access to oil and other resources. I think of the thousands of Iraqi women in exile who are working as prostitutes to make the money they need to live. I want life to be better for those people, for all people. But I'm not sure if I really want justice, full justice.

One of my favorite Shakespearean quotes comes from The Merchant of Venice, a play that has come under fire for its anti-Semitic overtones. I've read a lot of Shakespeare, and forgotten most of what I've read, but these lines have always resonated:

The quality of mercy is not strain’d,
It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven
Upon the place beneath. It is twice blest:
It blesseth him that gives and him that takes.
’T is mightiest in the mightiest: it becomes
The throned monarch better than his crown;
His sceptre shows the force of temporal power,
The attribute to awe and majesty,
Wherein doth sit the dread and fear of kings;
But mercy is above this sceptred sway,
It is enthroned in the hearts of kings,
It is an attribute to God himself;
And earthly power doth then show likest God’s,
When mercy seasons justice. Therefore, Jew,
Though justice be thy plea, consider this,
That in the course of justice none of us
Should see salvation: we do pray for mercy;
And that same prayer doth teach us all to render
The deeds of mercy.
I believe that working for justice is a necessity--to always look to see the connections between what I do and how it affects others in this world. I believe that at our core we are an inseparable One, and that my life should reflect that reality. In a body, when all is working well, the cells work together synergistically for the good of the one body.

When I think of this karmic burden I bear, that we bear, I feel bad. But I know that guilt comes cheap, and if I only feel bad, like a penance paid for a wrong, that it does nothing to right the wrong. The only thing that I believe matters in the end is how those feelings of guilt translate into right action. I will work for justice, in the ways I can, but I will hope for mercy.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Does anyone else feel like they are running out of time?

I haven't posted for a while. I've had my reasons. The perennial lack of time thing. Feeling like whatever I might say has already been said, so what is the point, that sort of thing.

In the last few years I've been struggling to find a way to live in this world at this time, a time of deep uncertainty--to do what I need to do to come to grips with the enormity of the challenges of this time of being human on this earth, while still keeping myself in the here and now, where things are really OK--for me, at any rate. It seems like this has been a recurrent theme of the messengers in my life--the "be here now" thing. I'm trying to do that. I get that, that the reality of life isn't what I see, that my human brain probably can't comprehend it--that there is more to life than I see on the surface. But I also know that we're going down a treacherous path--as a nation, as a planet. We have no plan, as Americans, for the future. We hope it will turn out OK. But we have no plan for sustainability, and haven't been able to come to grips with what living unsustainably does to us at a very deep level. We know it can't go on forever. We just want to hope the party lasts long enough for us, and maybe for our children, if we can think that far ahead. I think most of us just try not to think about it too much.

I was reading an article last week in Conscious Choice, a free magazine about town, about a new phenomenon--"Eco anxiety." A term for the people who are freaking out about the state of things. Out of worry about the state of the Earth, of its ability to sustain us over the long haul. About the toxins in the air, the water, the things we live near every day. I think that even for those who don't allow those thoughts to creep too close--perhaps because just getting through today is struggle enough, and there isn't time or room enough to think too much about tomorrow--that on some deep level, it affects us all. I don't think it's an accident that depression is so common in America. There is a deep imbalance in this world, and it is not hard to see. We've been taught that we have to look out for ourselves, because no one else will do it, and yet there is no real safety that doesn't come from deep community.

I have been feeling like time is running out, winding down. My response has mostly been to try not to think about it. To make excuses and to wish and hope a time will come when I'll have the extra time to do the things to make my life align more with what I feel at my core that it should be. I think it's a kind of denial, springing from a grief and fear that I just do not want to feel.

So I can shut it out, try to hold it at bay. Or I can bring it close, and let it propel me to take steps in the direction that calls me. It's the choice I have at any moment. It usually feels easier to push it off, to put it off until another day. There is always so much to do, after all. Damn kitchen just never seems to get clean. But I don't think it's what I came here to do.

I don't know what the answer is, but I think the first answer is to do what I can to try to resist the impulse to not do the things I want to do because I feel like there is no time to do them, because I can see so clearly how that story will end, and that it would be easy to run out a whole life that way. To take steps--even if they are baby steps--to reclaim the time, to do what I can to make it matter, while I have it. While I have this day.

Link:

Conscious Choice article about Eco Anxiety